Jan… Pain…
Well, I’ve been worried a lot lately due to some things going on.
I need to get a job, just something normal for once in my life.
I’ve finally got wood, so I’m not cold or anything now 
Thank You JESUS!
My friend cut it for me since I didn’t have a chain saw. I helped load it all, and once again my back went crazy and I’m having a hard time right now. I have on a brace, and my leg likes to go numb.
I just need healed, no big one for the mud throwing Jesus I know, blind you say? *SPIT* now, how awesome is that? Imagine what the religious people said! haha!! *cough cough spit* HERE, lemme put this here stuff in your eye! hahaha Musta been a parlor trick, fersir *was speaking hick* hehe
Life is going alright, besides the pain and no money I have bills coming up and can’t even pay them, but God’ll provide.
I’ve got to grab something to eat, blessings!
Genesis 50:15-21
15 When Joseph?s brothers saw that their father was dead, they said, ?What if Joseph holds a grudge against us and pays us back for all the wrongs we did to him??
16 So they sent word to Joseph, saying, ?Your father left these instructions before he died:
17 ?This is what you are to say to Joseph: I ask you to forgive your brothers the sins and the wrongs they committed in treating you so badly.? Now please forgive the sins of the servants of the God of your father.? When their message came to him, Joseph wept.
18 His brothers then came and threw themselves down before him. ?We are your slaves,? they said.
19 But Joseph said to them, ?Don?t be afraid. Am I in the place of God?
20 You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.
21 So then, don?t be afraid. I will provide for you and your children.? And he reassured them and spoke kindly to them.
January 13th, 2004 at 10:39 pm
Hey! I hope things will get better for u! I will keep u in my prayers! Keep me in ur prayers.. Read the story i posted in the last one.. It might explain a little more! Amen! God will always provide! Well.. I will go now! bye!
January 14th, 2004 at 10:51 pm
Whoa nelly…
I read it… now that my friend is slightly whacked… I’ll be praying for you guys for sure.
I’ve never had a pastor do something like that, how hurtful would that be!
My My
*walks off thinking*
January 15th, 2004 at 7:10 pm
I know! That’s crazy! I literally was about to punch in the face cuz know one talks about my brother that way! He may not be my favorite brother but he is family! Gosh, he sickens be big time! thanks for keeping me in ur prayers! hope things are better for u.. bye!
January 17th, 2004 at 3:14 am
What up with the no money thing, anyway? That must be going around. That’s true about God providing. As far as I’ve ever seen in life, He blesses those who bless Him. I don’t think it would hurt to do some serious praying, fasting, evangelizing, and WORSHIPING in such times. He knows our hearts and the depth of our devotion. Plus, we should show Him He can trust us with blessings - trust that we’ll use them to further His Kingdom. Eh? Eh. Love, brother.
My prayers are with you tonight for healing. His touch is amazing (and by ‘amazing’ I mean it leaves us in wonder, awe, and amazement - even though from His word we can see that He always provides ABOVE and BEYOND what we could ever hope, ask, or need. He is SO our Father!) so I’ll be a-prayin’ for you to know His amazing touch, kiddo.
Be blessed and be a blessing!
January 17th, 2004 at 1:46 pm
It’s amazing to me already that I have people in my life that pray for me, and technically I don’t even ‘know’ them. That’s so strange you know?
How did the two of you find me anyways? LOL
thank you, and BLESSINGS IN JESUS!
January 17th, 2004 at 5:34 pm
yeah… funny.. i found this place cuz i was lookin for some lyrics. i added some here and there and then i found the journal! lol!
January 18th, 2004 at 3:01 pm
Hey there. I found your page while looking up lyrics for a worship song. I’d like to say to Grace that yes it can be upsetting but ya gotta pray that God will work in your pastor’s heart as well as your own… I know it’s aggrivating. I’m a singer for a few worship teams and one is so centered on what people are wearing "Uh oh your colar bone is showing… you can’t sing today- what you wear reflects the whole team" … and yes it was aggrivating but I just keep praying for God to work in everyone’s heart and that maybe if I’m wrong he’ll show me and if they’re wrong he’ll show him and that we can work together.
AT I love your journal entries. They’re so inspiring! Your incredable faith in God is indearing and I’ve prayed that God will provide for you and thanked him for your openness on this site! You have some great ideas and I pray God will give you strength in the future maybe to be a leader (or faithful follower of a leader) in some reformations in maybe your church or the american church in general…who knows, just listen for God and be open to everything he has to say! I have no doubt anything he says to do is for the better. I had to make a choice to quit a sports team I thuroughly enjoyed because I felt God wanted me to and I was ostracized for it but it turned out I got out just in time before things got crazy bad there and I’m happier for it
. Anyway… thanks again! Tah!
~Catherine
January 19th, 2004 at 3:57 am
Catherine! If you knew how much I needed to hear that then you’d surely know it was from God almighty! WHOOO JESUS!
Thank you for tuning your ear to His heart.
Where ya from?
Blessings!
ps
Thanks for the compliments. It’s all God, has to be if you knew me
January 19th, 2004 at 2:41 pm
Hey Everybody! Things are better for me at church.. The pastor is acting as if nothing happend.. Oh well.. the past is past.. Hehe.. Thanks guys for keepin me in prayer.. There are so many worship teams out in that competition and my pastor has been sayin that we have a chance of winning becuz we have the holy spriit with us.. Hmm.. and they don’t. Makes me wonder. Most of them care more about God than we probably do.. I mean just overall. I think I’m probably the only one that does it to praise and glorify him while everyone does it for the glory.. bugs me sometimes.. I just always refer myself to Proverbs 5-6. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to thy own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy path.. It always reminds me that if I trust in God he’ll be there and guide me through times of trouble like now.. Well.. I’m going to watch the Australian Open right now.. Bye!
January 21st, 2004 at 10:47 am
Well.. i hope yalll are good and stuff like that. Thanks Catherine.. I play bass for worship too.. It wasn’t as bad then but just whenever my older siblings come home.. something always goes wrong.. It’s as if he has somethin against my family or somethin.. I have a friend that wants to quit becuz she doesn’t like the pastor but she can’t cuz the pastor will tell on her and she will get into trouble.. Oh well.. I just pray that all of us that don’t like him will be able to learn to adjust to his ways..(even though he’s been hurr like forever) Hehe! Well.. I will go now! bye!
January 21st, 2004 at 8:26 pm
U know what? U actually inspired me to make my own blog.. Thanks a bunch.. I hope people will be inspired at my blog as they are here.. Hopefully.. they will be inspired to go out there and spread the gospel! thanks!