sick to my stomach
I’m so pissy right now… AOLIM and ICQ, along with MSN are all being so stupid… }}Screenshot{{
I’m tired and so bored that I could kill something for fun… I ate some frosted flakes, then two oranges a banana and another bowl of cereal… then I went for a walk on someone elses property and was throwing myself over fences… and if you knew the pain I’ve been in, you’d prob slap me for doing that… but the way I look at it is you don’t matter, so forget you!
I was messaged, not to see how I was or where I’ve been for awhile but because people need things… once again, forget you!
only freakin person who’s messaged me in a few days who hasn’t wanted something, but to just TELL me something was Heather, so thank you Heather!
I was told by some morons to watch what I write here, why? what are you going to do? who do you think you are? this is my area, my reign, and if you have a problem with that then not so kindly get off my freakin website!
it’s kinda funny, was talking to my brother about todays youth and the violence… if you break it down, all it takes for anyone to hurt someone else is a willingness to… not a he said she said crap, but a… DUDE I don’t like them…. Or…. I’m bored! that’s the way I see things, and the way many of todays youth see it too…. After all, we are the ones you need to be afraid of…
mmm, eating another orange… seeing what combo of stuff I can eat before I hurl… matter of fact, I’m finding it hard to swallow… if I throw up, I’ll take some digital pics and post them for ya… yeah, sounds nice eh?
I just took my pants off, my hip is bruised LOL it was nice being outside though… stayed out for about an hour, went and laid by a pond with snow all over… laid there, clothes getting soaked, going numb just like my thoughts at times…… deer began coming out of the woods, 7 to be exact and I just laid there quietly as they drank… that’s the joy I get… that’s what I like…
doesn’t matter though
December 10th, 2002 at 4:18 am
oh i am sorry AT reading that makes me feel so stupid over the last couple of days.. I am sure i sent you an email to see if you were okay as i was worried about you dude.. I am praying for you and so is Holy?Fire..
Anyhow for those people who said to him that he needs to watch what he writes i do have this to say to you so i hope you read it.. If you do not like what AT writes then why do you even bother coming to his site or reading what he does? I happen to love what AT writes and think its great in what he does, but as he said if you don’t like it then leave its that simple.. But anyhow i stick up for my friends as i care and love them lots so get a life and leave him alone as its his site and he can do what he wants.. Anyhow moving on AT that was an awersome one bro but it got me thinking thats for sure.. Anyhow i am going to go with the Leading of God and you will see dude
((((((((((((AT)))))))))))) Love and GBY
December 12th, 2002 at 11:34 am
at time in and space in our life we hit a wall hard…its more like free falling without something to catch us…being tooking from a place of peace…seeking man approve and not God…why should we care if others dont see at time that we are in pain and hurting…when we have the Father to call on…in your pity party did you stop once and call out to God…in your boredom did you ask God was there anything that you could do for him…hurting one self because your numb and out of peace isnt the cry to the answer you seek… and only kill the numbness for a short time… I have always hate the saying let go let God… easy said then done…like the words im typing out now…and by the way mind reading is hard…and not knowing you well i didnt know you was in need… and unless one cry out for help…then others cant be there to help…when a tree fall in the woods and no one around do you hear it fall…hmmm…im sorry AT in the short time i have known you…I know that you are stronger then most…and in your own words about maybe three post back you said ( get over it)… love you((((((THE BOMB))))))
December 13th, 2002 at 11:32 am
I wasn’t hurting, as in emotional pain… my shoulder has been screwed up…
plus some of those words you say lil thorns are some that I’ve said to you… funny how they come back to bite you in the butt eh? lol
basically I’ve been bored, I’ve been working so much and even when I’m busy people still want things from ME, not from God, but from me… and I don’t like that… it’s rather frustrating…
I’m doing good though, even though my last entry sounded like I was about to harm th planet lol it was a bad day…
get this, last night in my dream I blew a guys head off… funky eh? he told me I couldn’t have a twinkie… JK! LOL
later
December 13th, 2002 at 11:52 am
awwwww…AT all them Thwaps I been giving you no wonder your shoulder is hurting…told you not to mess with me lol just pickin…and you though you was THE BOMB….and yeah our own word come back and slap us upside the head…my word do that to me a lot… I know that it’s hard when people come to you seeking things that they would get a better answer if they had seek God… people are like that…we are funny things seeking man help…and approve when it really don’t matter….only have God see us matter…. when we run to and call on man then we in fact saying that God can’t answer this cry…God is weak and can’t help….we need to get our eyes off of man and place it upon God…and stop tieing his hands with can’t….be in peace….and don’t seek man for a fix all….((((((Love Yall))))))))) God bless
April 17th, 2003 at 4:26 pm
you are one of the most freakyest people i have ever read about fag.
April 24th, 2003 at 10:11 pm
i like what AT writes too. =D